Before dinner H said, hey I don't have gas money. How about we skip dinner so I can put gas in the car?
Me: Seriously? Why don't you ask your mom for money? (she always lends him money!)
H: She lent me money yesterday.
Long silence. I wanted to leave! I wanted to say, ok well I'm going I'll see you later. But I didn't. that would've been me feeling sorry for myself so I stood up to the situation and said, I want to go to dinner.
More silence. H: ok. Let's go.
We went to get tacos. yum and talked about all the same stuff we talk about. work, the kids, money, etc.
Before the sitch I used to criticize the decisions he made at work. H said he stopped talking to me about work because of that. When it comes to money, he'll talk about how we should get new cars once I start working again. I listen and validate. Oh yeah that would be great. Old me: What? Seriously H we don't have money for that and I'm not planning on going back to work anytime soon!
But now, how important is it for me to express myself? He's telling me his ideas. I like his ideas but I don't have to stomp on them like I used to because they weren't practical.
We ate talked and I dropped him off so I could go to my Al Anon mtg.
It was nice. No he's not moving back in tomorrow. No we didn't ML and No he didn't apologize profusely. We just chatted. Baby steps...
M 42 H 39 T10 (-2yrs separation) S8 D5 DD 7/30/11 (EA&PA) Reconciled 6/2013 Separation in works 1/2017