About to separate....

[dorightman]

Another sleepless night! It's SOOOOO HARD to DB while you live together. I feel like I've failed for the past two months. Nothing's changed, in fact, I feel like she's dug in harder. She tells me that if I would have reacted differently when she first layed this on me(two months ago)by saying "ok honey, I hear you and I will give you your space and move out) , she would have had a change of heart. Now, because I did the opposite,(not move out and fight), she's less interested in reconciliation. I'am getting tired of her coldness, lack of love for me. I feel so bad. The nights are definitely the hardest for me. Today she told me that she thinks I'm sticking around because I'am hollow inside, I'am nothing without defining myself as the husband and father in this family. That I'm afraid of being single, afraid of admitting my failure to my family/friends, etc.etc. It really hurt what she said. And it made me feel angry. I told her and she said that she can't tell me the truth anymore because I can't handle it.
I know I'm not supposed to talk about the R with her, but we've all been home because of the storm, and we've had way too much time together.