I hope I got all my venting out on this thread for today. Does anyone else or has anyone else felt this way??? One minute happy at chance to work on marriage again..then next resentful that I am the one doing all the work once again...I mean, really, he acts as if he didn't just take off and take a trip out of family funds...it's all HIS money to HIM...said he was getting as far the f.... away from me as possible...and needed to relax without me and my bullsh*t for a change......
NO apologies...NO taking credit for the way he talked so abusively to me...NOT a thing wrong on his side of the street...I am sick of that attitude..sick to death of it...How do I get him to stop thinking and acting like that by db'ing???? I just have so much fear...I fear that this is a mistake trying again...I fear that he will NEVER change...I fear that I am just staying with him out of fear of leaving him....
and then I feel I love him...I remember good times... I remember the ok times....and I do love him.....I just don't know if I can take being the bad guy all the time...it's always MY FAULT...no matter what it is...
