Jaec, it's been seven months now, what have you done for you? What have you done to try to be able to rent closer to your son?

You need to pick yourself up, dust yourself off and live for you. Set very small goals and then when you reach them, celebrate and set some more. Baby steps.

Sorry if this sounds harsh but you basically have two choices, wallow in self pity or pick yourself up and live.

Have you read DR?
I know it's hard but right now hard is the only choice you have.
You need to stop asking why and how! You need to think about anything you done to contribute to this and do 180s, you need to forgive both yourself and your wife. Change what you can, accept what you can't.

Do you still have any form of contact with your W or S?

M: 29, H: 31
D: 9
S: 8
T: 13 Y
M: 9 Y
ILYBIDKIILWY 12/09/2012
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Worrying does not empty tomorrow
of its troubles. ~~~ it Emptys today of its strengths