i'm so alone and lonely.. i miss my son so much... i miss my wife so much... i miss my family. i don't understand and, on some level, i sort of hope that i never do. it's all just a cycle, now, between soul crushing depression and over the top self destructive behavior. i've lost it all except for my life and it's harder and harder figuring out why that has any value now other than as an example of what not to do.
