I guess I am thinking I will have to validate his feelings and act as if things are all right....read an interesting sitch where w acted as if so much ...h got more and more explosively angry because he felt she was not noticing his anger...so...I will validate his feelings ( even though NO ONE ever validates mine) and I will act as if...
Goals...have house clean when he comes home ...keep driveway clear of snow ...go ice fishing while he is home ...NO CONFLICT...solve issues by being solution oriented..not problem focused...
I don't know...maybe a D is just easier, simpler and the best way to go...I'm feeling a bit put out...once again I have to do all the work....why is that? Last night I was excited...now I am feeling let down and almost well, depressed at the thought of him coming home...
emotions running rampant...I do not think I will call him today...not even this evening...
It's time for a break to think....maybe a few dark days will help me...yes, he has indicated he's coming home...and willing to work on things, but somehow that just doesn't seem to be enough to me....why? I don't know...He's just so self righteous and thinks he's so perfect sometimes...He is NEVER wrong...it's ridiculous...it's always MY FAULT when we argue or fight about anything.....
ARGGGHHH..head is spinning...best to have no contact with him today if possible...