What about your confidence? When are you going to find that? Your sense of self-worth? Your ability to function on a day to day basis without having W's actions constantly clouding your every decision?
Arsene, these are the lost things you need to find before anything else. I know I'm being very harsh here, but I don't want to see you continue down this path... this sense of things moving in a good direction and things warming up... only to see her swing back to OM on a more consistent basis and leave you devastated...
You've done some great work on yourself, but now it's time to protect your emotions a bit...
We need you to keep your head down in this foxhole soldier!