thanks for checking in. i am struggling the past few days and have been a bit embarrassed to post.
i went away for the weekend and had fun but honestly trips are a glaring reminder of missing my W... we always had so much fun on trips together. so i have been sadder since returning. does anyone else feel that?
i am fighting a cold too so my strength is low..
i have been trying to focus on the beautiful things i have in my life instead of the lack. i have been trying to lean into my sadness and not resist. i have been trying to do all the things that i think are healthy for me to get through this... but the truth is that sometimes this path is still hard for me.
thankfully i know that i will get through this and if this mood persists it means a growth step is coming.
Me(f): 51 W: 41 DP:8 M:3 T:10 "W not happy" 7/11 D final: 8/13
