Riding the Bull

[Arsene]

Thanks for dropping by my friends. Rough, I know what you mean but the reason I came back here, to this city, was so that D8 could see her mom as often as possible. To me, this is still the best option for her until there is closure, no matter what effect it has on me.

Tori, Thanks for your comment to my question. I also appreciate what you say about OM and how she might just open up even more if I keep doing what I'm doing.

I was out watching that blues band I hope to manage, with a friend and I got home to a lovely note from my D8 which told me how much she loves the "new" daddy and in the end saying that "we will be back to a happy family like before but daddy will be changed to the happy one". It brought me to tears of course.

I then went through my correspondence and FB and a few minutes ago, obviously after her gig tonight, W changed her status to:

"Why do we have to lose before realizing the value/price of a being/existence/presence/someone?" (translated using online translators).

This is all very emotionally taxing. I wish that if W had something to say, she just came out and said it.

I don't know if I'll be able to sleep tonight.

I'll hold off before telling her about my decision on practice with the friend.