chill pills are hard to swallow. I think they are the size of a horse pill and you can't take them with water. Need to swallow them dry! lol!
I'm in the same boat. I get so impatient when I see a bit of progress. H told me he see hope in us reconciling and I just focus on that little bit he said and I RUN with it! Seriously. I think I tune out all the other stuff he said and just hear blah blah blah, I see hope in us, blah blah blah. I'm laughing as I write this.
Take care Tumbling. It's only Tues and we still have the rest of the week.
M 42 H 39 T10 (-2yrs separation) S8 D5 DD 7/30/11 (EA&PA) Reconciled 6/2013 Separation in works 1/2017
LOL Chill pills need to be taken dry - I love it Vero Thanks for dropping by. I've just posted on Busting's thread about my inner drama queen and here she is posting here: "If he doesn't make an arrangement then we will NEVER see each other" I'm laughing now too.
ME41 H39 T12 M9 Ilybinilwy 10/2010 H moves out 11/2010 H moves in 09/2011 out 11/2011 Try to fix it alone, give up 07/2012 Tumbling to file 02/01/2013 :-) "Strong on the inside, soft on the outside"
Tumbling, keep up the positive attitude. The fact that you're not indifferent shows that you still might want your M to work. I think there has been progress in your sitch, just remember that progress is slow. And it's awesome that you're so busy and have friends, and this potential job. Good for you, my friend!
O I know what this is - this is old Tumbling panic - if he doesn't make an arrangement then we will never see each other. I was like this at 17 too!
this is so true! and you are so right! we tend revert to our teenage-selves in panic sometimes. Its great that you recognize it before you let it affect you. Really inspiring. ((((( )))))
I love your spirit and I love your ability to keep moving. I know you help keep me moving.
And let your H work for YOU. You are doing great already
((((((( Tumbling)))))))
TPS Me: 44 H: 42 M14 T17 S10 D7 10/10 H moves out after death of his father-same month 21/04/12 H is 'DONE' 04/05/12 OW/PA confirmed (rumors from 2010) July '14 H ends affair May '15 H moves back home
A question to Wendylon, why do you think he will go darker after our successful evening?
From following your sitch so far, I've gathered that your H is scared and cautious. It might just be my mind-reading but that's the sense I get through your posts about him. I somehow figure that the contact you had the other night will go a long way with him and that he may not need any more for a while in the same way that a rich meal keeps you satiated for a bit. Also, he might not want to get your hopes up if he's confused therefore would go dim for a bit. Just me guessing...
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Sunday I was too busy to think about the sitch
Perfect!
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He replied "morning x" I didn't ansa.
Perfect again!
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Today, I really want him to call and make another date (if I want this - I'm not done am I?)
You are definitely not done! Sometimes I think you think you might be, but your words and actions show me that you're NOT DONE.
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I know I have to remain leaning back and let him come to me.
You're right.
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But once again I doubt he's going to do it.
That's what makes it so difficult to do but it gives you the best chance of things working long term while you're detaching at the same time.
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And I'm busy this weekend - girlfriend coming over Sat early evening for dinner, then we are going to the theatre and she's staying the night.
That all sounds great.
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Guess I need to take a chill pill!
Let me know if you find one that works.
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And prepare my CV and cover letter for that job I saw last week
Yes! Great plan.
Take care, Tumbling.
Me: 51 H: 52 T: 23 yrs M: 19 yrs S18, D16, S14 (special needs) PA: 2003/2004 Piecing: 2004 on Suspect H had EA: 8/2012-12/2012
Thanks Wendylon for answering my question. You think? Maybe - takes a long time for him to trust anyone - maybe this is another cycle of MLC touch and go
Journalling
He seems to have got what he needed - Tumbling is still there really - and run away again or he is confused by what he found out - shock - drum roll please - he enjoys hanging out w his W!
Whatever. Tumbling is NOT texting tonight. She is lying on the blanket admiring the moon. She is fine and dandy and texts mean diddly squat anyway. I can even send one to my Self, so there. H does not exist unless he is in my physical presence.
I can't believe I am back here again! You see what happens when he doesn't contact me - All ambivalence is shot to pieces!
Calm down drama queen it's only been a few days, give the guy a chance - what? another one? Yes, another one because you are leaning back this time and he doesn't know how to walk in those new shoes yet
You are doing great Tumbling! Hang in there. I am quiet myself. Resolved to stick with it this time! You have done so much already this is going to be easy! Besides imagine how good it will feel when he DOES initiate contact!
See how when he doesn't contact you some of those negative feelings/anxiety want to come back? Now that you know, you can be prepared.
I think you're GALing so well, and are so confident. Kudos to you. Don't text. He will either text you or call you soon. And who knows what's going through his head...only he knows.
Journalling So I'm just back from Spanish class Nothing from either of us last night nor this morning I have remained leaned back all day I resolved not to send "night, night" tonight if he didn't text me first. Just logged on here and he texts "night, night Tumbling Punkydo x" Really? Are we back to that again?
Would be interested to know what you think his motives are for those ^^^^ texts?
I'm not replying tonight. I want to see what else he can do/will risk The ball is in his court and I'm NOT going to show him how to play with it i.e. not sending texts with hooks.
Also decided that I have NO time this w/e for any other activities than what is planned already, no matter who with It was far too hectic last w/e for me - I ended up sleeping 10hrs on Monday night as I didn't get enough rest last weekend.
At the moment the following w/e is empty but it will get booked w others if he doesn't ask to see me.
well done Tumbling re: CV. you will bust to I am SURE. :-)
Good for you not to respond you are right, lets see how he responds and hopefully ups it. I am not sure what he means by them...but for sure leave it and see what he does next without any prompting from you.
You are so strong and your posts are so inspiring.
(((((( )))))
TPS Me: 44 H: 42 M14 T17 S10 D7 10/10 H moves out after death of his father-same month 21/04/12 H is 'DONE' 04/05/12 OW/PA confirmed (rumors from 2010) July '14 H ends affair May '15 H moves back home
