Thanks for all your comments and applause
I am singing "DB Queen" (to Abba Dancing Queen tune)

A question to Wendylon, why do you think he will go darker after our successful evening?

Journalling/Musing
Sunday I was too busy to think about the sitch
Monday morning I didn't know if he was heading over here or not so I tidied d'stairs abit (dishes in dishwasher).
He text to say they were going to drop him at the house as they couldn't take him to work. I replied as I was leaving "No probs". He replied "morning x" I didn't ansa.
Later I text to remind him to pay for it on our joint ac card and to let me know the amt (I still mg our finances) He said OK.
End of day as I was leaving work - I chkd my phone - no pymt amount so wondered if car had been finished and whether he was still at house. "Hey, are you still at the house? I'm heading home now." Got home and it was if no one had been inside since I had left. And then I got a text saying "No, I didn't go to the house in the end" I ansa'd "That explains why it doesn't look like you've been here!" Nothing from either of us.
I went to bed at 7.30pm with a migraine and slept for 10hrs - I really needed some rest after my hectic few days.

Today.
H has been on my mind a lot. I keep asking my Self do I want this relationship or not? And, I don't know. I keep thinking - No, I'm good as I am - but the thing is we aren't 100% over are we?
He is still in my life (daily txts, still married)so I don't know what it feels like totally H-less.
Today, I really want him to call and make another date (if I want this - I'm not done am I? If I was physically closer to him than my male friends then there's something there isn't there?)

I know I have to remain leaning back and let him come to me.
But once again I doubt he's going to do it. And I'm busy this weekend - girlfriend coming over Sat early evening for dinner, then we are going to the theatre and she's staying the night.
O I know what this is - this is old Tumbling panic - if he doesn't make an arrangement then we will never see each other. I was like this at 17 too!
Guess I need to take a chill pill!
And prepare my CV and cover letter for that job I saw last week