You have to give him space. You would be putting pressure on him to keep doing this. He would find it to be pursuing from you right now. You sound very much like me in the beginning of this and you are scared right now.
You want to stay in some form of contact with him because of your fear of losing him. You could just end up pushing him away instead of pulling him closer. He needs to heal from all the emotional things and so do you.
I know for my husband, he found it to be too much from me. You are trying to show him that you changed and you have to stop doing these things for him. They have to be for you and right now, you want to stay in some form of contact and I can definitely understand that. As I'm sure most of the people on this board can understand that.
The hardest thing to do is let someone go that you want so badly. It is also harder when you can see the things that you did that pushed them away and they are not being very forgiving or understanding of what you went through. At this time, he can not be that. He has been drained. He has to recharge in order to give you what you need and so do you.
The more you try to do all the things that he said you weren't doing and change the things that you were doing to please him and get him back, he is going to stay away. These changes have to be for you and it is going to take him some time to see the changes.
I know how bad you want to show him and make things right. I know how bad you want to fix things, but things don't get fixed over night. He sees the action that you are taking by contacting the doctor and all that. Now you need to give it time. Remember, time is your friend and time is what is needed right now.
