I am on topomax, welbutrin, and risperdal. I have a psychiatrist..not just an MD...He says that maybe all along I have been getting misdiagnosed...that perhaps I have been up and down because of alcohol abuse and that I should definitely try going without meds for a brief while...he also said it will take a while before meds are out of my system....at least two weeks...we are going to discuss how to go off meds tomorrow in person....I doubt it will be cold turkey, but I am hopeful that it will be a quick process...the welbutrin has never sat well with me...it makes me feel so agitated... but I didn't want to question the dr's orders as I sooo wanted to get well...now I know I am the expert on me and I need to question everything that makes me uncomfortable.....or uneasy, whatever....I hate the topomax now because of the sexual dysfunctional side effects...little to know orgasmic capabilities on it...and the risperdal lends to that same effect...so I am really looking forward to no meds...and a new lease on life....Wow..never thought I would be grateful to be an alcoholic...but if that is all I am...thank God...maybe I can lead a normal sober life ....as the meds always only seemed to help for a brief period of time and then always seemed to be out of whack for me...making me worse and not better...that's why doc thinks that they aren't necessary...he thinks that I am over medicated...not undermedicated and need to try life on life's terms....praise God...so do I..... But now what do I do about H? Leave him alone, right? Call or email or beep only when really absolutely necessary. Does that mean I can call after doctor's appointment to share news....or should I not call him? Any ideas or input? He's up there until the 27th and then I don't know where he's going..so this is the only time I know for sure that I can communicate with him...so giving him his space really is difficult on me...when I want to talk and work on things and make up and make everything go away and go back to where we were a month ago before things fell apart so quickly....
