DD16 is away this week, we almost have the house to ourselves. The last few days have been quite stressful again, another big fight on Friday night. My typical response to confrontation is to run away. Again, I stood my ground. Even threw a couple of insults back, which I don't feel real good about. Must apologize for that. Yesterday, someone pointed out to me that H has not dealt with his own trauma. In other words, when my mental illness took on a life of its own, it impacted my whole family. I have worked hard to understand what happened to me. I think I've worked out most of the demons. The same is not necessarily true for H and the Three Bears. I just assumed they were past it. So I need to change my perspective. H is controlling, yes. He is also afraid of what could happen again, because he has not finished recovering from the trauma. (Yes, it was that bad) Thank goodness I have a great IC and we see a good MC as well. Now that I am stronger, I have a healthy support system, including those who will call BS when necessary. That's all for now... Peace, Goldey
Me:44, WAW hx bi-polar H:48, hx of abuse S:22, S:19, D:16 Filed Oct 08, dismissed Filed again Jan 10, dismissed Now Piecing alter persona: SuperBoots