Chasing Ghosts

[Beardown]

I hear you Denver. If I didn't know about W's Saturday rendezvous I would think things were really turning around. She even asked if I wanted something from Subway meaning dinner two nights in a row. I was polite and helped her our with the boxes but said I was meeting a some friends downtown so I had to get going. W asked if I had a hot date and I kindly responded no I am married. I had a chat with a close friend of mine and much to my surprise he said to go dark for awhile. It seems these past few weeks she has taken the initiative to call and ask you over for dinner. Before she just wanted out. I am going to go dark for a while and when she asks why I am not calling I will let her know my boundaries. I have been thinking about this converation the past few days and am getting the strength to do it. Over the past month I have begun to lose my fear of her and I have been much more confident talking with her and maybe she sees that I am slipping away so so she is getting curious. When I formulate my boundaries I would like to run it by you guys. Thanks for checking in I still believe we can do this it gets hard though when you are the only one interested. The only thing that keeps me going is the thought of someday being back home happier than ever. I think se saw a glimpse last night!