I'm a nutshell, yes. I didn't say it is right, it just is.

In our last arguement this past Wed she said she's acting the way she is b/c of the guy I've become. She said I'm pushing her buttons. My actions influence her actions. So I think I finally got it through my thick skull that it takes one to tango and I needed to break the negative cycle and get a positive cycle going instead.

Ever since Thur things have been better. Peaceful and at times actually very nice and enjoyable. It's still not where I want it but compared to what I was doing before it's an improvement.

I have a ways to go and know I can't do these 180's for a few days and go back to more of the same. I'm avoiding bringing up R talk at all, I'm just acting differently.


“People are just as happy as they make up their minds to be.” Abraham Lincoln