Saw H today. Talked on the phone too. Weird. Things were fine. Perhaps a little strained but not too much. He came over and fixed S window. Of course he broke it a couple of days ago. Not sure what it is with this house and windows. Anyway, that was rather quick and uneventful. Then he actually joked around with me. Seriously. I was a bit flabbergasted. Not sure how to even react. I thought he lost his sense of humor in about 2007 or so. lol :-) I'm kidding it was weirdish but nice. I think perhaps I overthink things. Had plenty to keep me busy both today and tonight. Didn't think too much more about it. Worried about the storm though. We are pretty much out of any real danger but we will get the bad weather. It is already very very cold and rainy. Windy too. Needless to say it is a good thing that was fixed. So he is still doing his fixing thing and trying to take care of some things at least. He fixed the window and took our window units and put them up for the year. Likewise, when invited to do anything by me he still refuses. I have decided to stop asking, regardless of what it is. I asked him today about going to girls' basketball game tonight. It was an away game. He declined. I had sort of hoped it was just me and he would show up to see them anyway. It would have thrilled them! No such luck though. Otherwise, I don't have a whole lot to report. He seems to get angry with me still rather easily as well. I noticed today I don't even remember what I said but I could tell he was getting pissy so I said, I'm sorry that I made you mad. I sure didn't intend to. His response was "I am just aggravated. I have decided I am not getting mad anymore." So I dunno.I have seen and heard his mad before and that sure felt like where we were heading. Anyway, I really think, his primary motivation at this point is sort of to detach from me. Trying not to feel anything. Really. I don't think it's working so hot but I think that is what all of this is about. I apparently hurt him much more than I thought. Oh and Crazy- I even asked if he wouldn't let me touch him because of fear of being hurt. I think you are right on. He wouldn't answer. Something about his reaction tells me that might be the reason though.
So that's all I have to report. I am actually going to bed early. Completely pooped and might as well get a little bit of rest. Snuggle in under the covers and share the bed with my bratty dog. At least he doesn't snore or roll up in my covers. :-) I hope everyone here is staying safe with this storm.
