Wow.... Just spoke with my Doctor and now he says I am not bipolar and the meds are what pushed me over the edge combined with the stress. Told this to H and he actually sounded like he might have been listening. I beeped him/emailed him and He called me...which is huge. He did not say I love you or respond to my I love you with more than a yeah...but it was a softer yeah than before...and he did say bye and not just hang up...
He told me to just put the meds in a drawer somewhere and stop taking them for now if that is what doc said to do...and then said but it is always one thing or another with you....
I said...that was when I was drinking...and I don't drink anymore....the drinking led to depression and so that caused us problems...I am sober now so we can have hope...
He was quiet...but I could tell he was listening for a change and not just tuning me out. I told him about a house I could house sit for the two weeks he was home...have to see if it has a computer though ...told him about some work I have and he said he had to fix a turbine...so I quickly said you better go..which is when I said I love you and then said I love you ...he said yeah, bye...and I said bye. What do you all think?
