So sorry to hear you are in pain. I was the last to know too. It hurts. Alot. And, the butt dial musta been awful. I'm also sorry you are being blamed.
This isn't your fault. Nothing to do with you. And, it does get better. My BD was about a year ago when my H said he wasn't sure he wanted to stay married to me because he felt like I was riding on his coattails. "You seem like a burden."
You will get through the hardest part. Just make sure to reach out and ask for what you need. I've spent hours researching, online, reading, etc... Do whatever it is that makes you feel better and helps you get through. The only way out is through.
You can do it!!!
Much Love, Heather
"You know, it's times like these when I realize what a superhero I am." Tony Stark/Iron Man
“Focus on what you can do, then do it with all your heart.” Lois Wilson
