So I decided that since today has been a kinda down day for me anyway, I might as well just get some other things moving along which aren't exactly mood-boosters... Might as well get as much of the crap out of the way as I can right now!

So I decided to finally take the step to tell my landlord that I'm going to have to move into a new place... As I'm paying FAR too much for a big place which my W and I picked out together... and I'm clearly not using all this space anymore. I hope he takes it well, as he's been very kind to me during this sitch, allowing me to split rent into two payments and not minding if I'm a few days late... although It seems like he's quickly tiring of that and it's just time to move forward...

Then I contacted my Realtor, letting her know that I'm in the market for a new place, hopefully MUCH cheaper than the one I'm in, but it needs to have a backyard for my puppy... The thing is, it's awfully hard to find a small-ish place with a backyard that's not in a very shady area of town... But she's good and I'm sure we'll find something... Now coming up with deposits, moving expenses, etc. will be a challenge during the holidays, but I've put this off far too long.

It's very nerve-wracking to be going through this right now... I mean aside from the sentimental value of the place I'm currently in, there's just something frightening about signing another year-long lease in South Florida...

I'm sure a lot of that has to do with the hope I have for the future of my sitch... as having to break this new lease would be an EASY thing to do if things improve there...

But it's still absolutely frightening to me to be doing this... These last 5 months have been the only time in my whole life that I've lived all alone... I always told myself that I should do that for a while before "settling down", but clearly I didn't... And now, the last thing I seem to want to do is go shopping for a new place all on my own.

But it's just another step I've got to take. I'm sure it's the right thing to do in the long run, as the place I'm living in now holds an awful lot of memories of a now dead-and-buried relationship, and a fresh start in a new place might be just what I need to keep my forward progress going... I don't want to get stuck, spinning my wheels and starting to wonder what actions I could be taking to move the sitch along... which is what tends to happen when I get stuck these days...

But normally I can whine on these boards a bit, get feedback from you good folks, and before I know it I'm back to where I need to be.