I decides to be my W best friend in this and continue my 180 as a person who is chasing a GF to date.
She feels much better and we have been talking like normal, except no physical contact.
Hardest thing I am doing now....i realized I need to GAL but also I am doing my W the best thing for my wife. To be there for her new life.
I helped her file D papers, she says if something happens we don't have to sign it. of course I have hope without expectations. I told her if we finalize this, I need along time away from her.
She also is giving me physical custody of the kids because I won't deny her kids.
In the end, I decided to not fight the flow but to help it, be there for her like when we got married. Whatever happens, happens. I really love her and want her to be happy.
Some may call me a doormat..but I know my wife is a great women and I appreciated all those years she gave me. I won't ever lose the memories I had with her. I wish we can create more and we will just not as husband and wife.
I hope to keep journaling this because I know there will be days ita hard to look at my wife(now my best friend) and continue to see how beautiful she is.
Everybody makes mistakes but I refuse to drown myself in dispair. I want what's best for kids and her.
Thanks to the people who commented. Sorry for the grammar, wrote this on my phone.
