The crack in my perfect life...

[Sweetbriar]

Thanks to all for the responses! I do know that I need to back off and that is what makes me so darn angry at myself...because I was doing well and have been doing my own thing for a couple weeks..only discussing kids. In fact, I havent even mentioned or asked about OW for over a month, which is what I think prompted me to do the drive by.

My mistake has brought numerous nasty texts this morning...saying how he "doesnt love me" and that "marriages end and that we need to act like adults during this" and that he "needs to work and function so he can pay my bills". He keeps repeating over and over that this is why he left and that it has nothing to do with OW. Also, that Im killing the relationship with his kids. I admit that having them along when we saw him last night was not good, but he has long since killed the relationship by acting and doing what he did.

He now has tons of reasons why he has made this choice...and he will continue to respond negatively, so I need to just stop texting him. It gets us nowhere. He is also saying that I had my chance when he was here to make things better...ummmm..I didnt even know things were wrong...

He really is in a path of self destruction...his life with OW has taken a hold of him and he is convinced that it wont get better than that...

Today has been terrible to far...why oh why did I go there yesterday...I will never know....it has ruined my day, and got us fighting again, etc...will I ever learn?

My friends and family say I need to put a period and move on. That he is not worth it and I deserve so much better...