Going over and over the confrontation with OW today.
Punishment, I suppose, for losing control and doing the wrong thing. But i keep coming back to the thought that if anyone threatens my kids - in any way - by their behaviour, I will do whatever it takes to make it stop.
Somewhat interesting that in the moment, or a lot of the time, come to think of it, I feel totally disconnected from what is going on in front of me. As if I'm not really there.
Usually i would have died of embarrassment to do what I did; in the moment, I couldn't have cared less.
Wonder if she is lying awake too?
Before we left for the concert today, stbx rang me to say that he would no longer be contacting the kids. Said it was because they did not want to see him and seldom answered the texts he sent them. I said I couldn't imagine how awful it would be not to see the kids.
He said no, I could not imagine. Then he said that he didn't want me to contact him either. I pointed out that i seldom had been contacting him in any case. He hung up.
Since then - i.e. within 4 hours - he has texted D16 3 times and called her once. Texted S14 twice and tried to call once (S14 would not answer, and when I tried to encourage him, told me to ring H myself).
Looking forward to not seeing stbx and establishing more calmness in the kids' lives. What a stinking mess this has turned out to be for everyone involved.
Thanks Bklyn, for your words of support. It means a lot.
