It's good to see you back. I want to commend you for doing so. It takes a lot of courage to accept when we have messed up and it takes a lot of strength to decide to put in the hard work to change and become the best we can be.
It sounds like you have a plan of action with the reading, counseling and celibacy. Good for you! It's never easy, but you will see the rewards - if your M cannot be saved, then you will save yourself, be happy and someday in the future share that with someone else.
We are all human and we all mess up. Come back and post if it helps you stay focused and see things clearly. Also come back and read others' situations. The beauty of being here is seeing a lot of people who are using their pain and hardship to turn things around.
BTW, if you want more traffic, you can post in Newcomers. That's definitely where most people post.
Keep up the good work!
Me & H: 44 D7, D6, S3 Together: 20y, M: 17y EA: 11/13/10, Sep: 12/23/10 EA becomes PA: Spring 2011 H filed for D: 09/06/12 D Negotiating began 2/15 OW seemingly gone on 3/15 Still negotiating D
