Oh Tori- I wish I could be proud of myself. Still a long way to go. I know my triggers. I have even told the kids. They know them too. LOL I am laughing now but I wasn't then. For one thing I am very noise sensitive and can get to feeling overwhelmed quickly when they are screaming or shouting. Which, honestly, is just normal kid stuff. The bigger thing is exactly what I said. I guess I resent some of his freedom. I have done the bulk of the work for a very very long time and still am. I need a break too sometimes. Although, to be fair, often if given the choice, I wouldn't want to be without or away from them anyway. Sigh. How stupid is that? I do get overwhelmed. Maybe part of it too was that thought in the back of my mind saying why do I have to put up with this while he just gets to do whatever in the world he pleases. Hell, I even still have HIS cat to take care of. Seriously. Likely though he is not having the great time I have made out in my head. I can't imagine having nothing but silence and NO kids around for days at a time. Perhaps, I just need a shift in perspective. Thanks again Tori!
