Staying off the ride 2 - Leaning Back

[Tumbling]

Afa, MKB23, Tori, Wendylon thanks for all your well wishing posts.

Got back at 12.15am and had to set off early this morning for a whale conference in Brighton (1.5hr drive away) so am only able to report now (22.00).

Summary
Very relaxed evening. He paid for dinner (had already paid for the movie tickets) so I guess this was a date? Nothing physical 'til he dropped me home. Kiss on the cheek. I text when he left thanking him for taking me out and that I had, had a great evening. I said I was surprised how at ease I felt in his company and that I was glad about that. He text when he got back to his place that he was "safe home.Night night"

I'm really pleased that we had a good night together
I'm also glad neither of us tried anything physical
There was a time when I wanted to hold his hand in the cinema but didn't.
We'll see what happens next.

Details
H arrived at 1800hrs. I saw him pull up so opened the front door - I don't like it when he uses his key to let him Self into my space.

So he came in and there was a bit of awkwardness as to how/whether to physically greet each other. We didn't. Instead we admired each others' new clothes! He was wearing a shirt and jeans (usually a t-shirt guy so had made an effort) and I had my rockstar outfit on.

He passed on a drink and sat in an armchair.
I sat on the sofa.
He looked a bit tired, said something about stomachache.
I thought nothing changes, he's always moaning about something.
Said he hadn't seen me in ages.
I said not since before your sailing trip, how was it?
He replied "I don't want to talk about it, it did us a lot of damage"
Me: "Oh, I haven't heard about it, just one question then. Did you see any whales?"
H: "Just a dolphin"
I asked him about work.
He moaned about that too (too busy, no resources etc) and then said "I don't want to talk about it. It p!55es me off. Everything annoys me. I hate life"
Me: I'm sorry you feel that way. I think it's all perception. I'm really enjoying my life.
He asked me about my Spanish class and where it was etc
I told him about it.
Then he helped me put Pink on my phone (I'd downloaded it already to the other media). We had to sit beside each other on the sofa for him to demonstrate.
We headed for the restaurant we used to go to (on foot, it's 5 mins into the village, no hand holding). On the way, I talked about quantum physics (I've been getting my head around it, he's an engineer and I had some questions)

At the restaurant, we became more and more relaxed w each other
At one point his sailing trip came up
It didn't sound like he had had a good time
Spent far too much money, friend's parents were there too so not a guy holiday, felt like a spare part.
Before he left in August he said that he would probably go there every summer to sail with his friend. I hadn't liked the sound of that at the time. Jealous. So was really glad to hear it hadn't been like the 2011 trip.

Can't remember what else we talked about. The holiday convo has stuck in my mind because I was so resentful about it.

He paid the bill and wouldn't accept half from me.
Walked back to the house. He drove us to the cinema.
Chatted all the way in the car - can't remember what about.
Cinema - I bought drinks - least I could do
Film - excellent
A couple of times, I turned to look at him when something happened and he would smile at me the way he used to.
Once I hid my eyes into his shoulder (scary bit - I don't do that with my guy friends)
Chatted all the way in the car back - talked about the film, trailers for other movies we fancied and said we would do it again.
He pulled up outside the house. It felt a bit awkward, like we were just friends (I guess that's all we are now).
I said "thanks for tonight" turned to him and aimed to kiss him on the cheek (I don't do that with other guys I hang with)and I don't know where he was aiming for but it ended up kind of on the edge of our mouths.
And then I was out the car with my key in the lock.

So a good evening, more relaxed than expected. No R talk.
Didn't feel self conscious.
Don't know how I feel about getting back together tho.
I think the reason for this is that I have been out all day with friends. Had a great time. Not been there before. So exciting to go to a new place.

Nothing from H today until I contacted him.
He needs to drop his car to our local garage first thing and I had offered to follow him there and then drop him back home to wait last night, so I text at 1730hr telling him I was still in Brighton and asking if he had made a decision on what he was doing in the morning.
He text "I'll sort myself out Tumbling Punkydo. Hope you've had a good day."
1830 Me "Had a lovely day, thanks. V.inspired"
1900 H"did you see xxx"
2130 Me"Yes caught up briefly"
H"Are you home safely now?"
Me"Just got in"
H"Good. I'm glad you had a nice time x"
Me"It was really good. You're welcome to wait in the house tom, if you need to"
H"Thank you. If I can't get them to take me to work, then I'll wait in the hse"
Me"Ok, I'm going to bed now. Night, night"
H "Night, night"


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