Stop this crazy train I want to get off!!!

[wishing, hoping]

Well trick or treat does not start until 5 so there is a bit if wiggle room. I just think he will be here at 4:00 to prove a point or maybe he is sooooo out of touch it won't Even phase him? Time will tell. Neither one will surprise me whatsoever.

Thanks Norfolk Dumpling. I have been at this not quite a year but it feels like five. I have had enough time and soul searching to know that I want and deserve something better. So do my kids. For a long time I felt like it was my fault but the more the truth came out the more I realized there was nothing I could have done to stop him. He was on a path and one thing about H is once he has his mind made up neither hell nor high water could stop him. Even tr threat of utter failure. Didn't matter. He was on his path and nothing could convince him otherwise.

I am ready to move on. I don't want another relationship but I want my life. I want my own home, my kids and my life. I do not want him controlling things anymore. I am tired of fighting. But that doesn't mean I am giving up what I want or need.