Had a bit of a wobble today, but went for a run in the rain, did aquagym, and the world is looking beautiful again. It helps so much to know you hear me. I have never been great at letting people see my weaknesses. Hence why my H was the go to guy if I needed a hug. He made me feel so safe, but I realised just now he hadn't done that for a long time.
Whilst my family and friends have been awesome, they just don't get it. Some say divorce him, forget him, go out and date, party or whatever. I'm not saying that will never happen but it's so far away right now.
I guess I long for that primal need for human touch, to have a man put his arms around me and know he will protect me, love me. I'm determined and strong, I won't just give up on him because I need some affection, but wow, can I see why people do that.
Snodderly, thanks for reminder about affair down. I know that as an intellectual concept but get caught up in the injustice of it all.
Nero, you take care in NJ sugar. Whilst we are battening down the hatches figuratively, you are doing it literally too. You are amazing, I would be terrified.
Now getting dolled up for dinner, staying in the hotel tonight. Met some wonderful people. My H would never want to talk to "strangers" so in that sense I have been very free. It's kinda liberating. X
