Forgot to add this truthful scenario above. A big part of me wants to know what she did or did not do, so that I can choose to stay at the house or go on "respite". I think its wrong to put that decision for me to be dependent on what her w/e consisted of. Add in the possible storm that may come our way (midwest in the US), scouts on Tuesday, and then Halloween on Wednesday. Not wanting to be away from the kids. I guess at least I'm being honest, realizing that and knowing I have several weeks for respite when / if I want. Keeping myself in limbo per se.
