i just mean i was being "aussie" - love the idea & accent. NO, WE'RE Americans thru & trhu- me a mutt of eastern european & english, irish, dutch, german, you name it - h arabic & german. (i should have known the minute i found that out huh???
anyway- yeah, it's a heck of along time- feel like my whole life. i'm at a real place of not being able to think about it currently. just exhaustion. hate the ow idea- hate him sometimes- can't imagine life without simetimes- i'd say i'm on "float" with a vengence.
don't know what to do- sympathize with the bed thing- i have been whole time- even when i first found out and wanted to really kill him. can a person REALLY sleep with one eye open? anyway- no other bed in house and i figured why the heck hsould i get a crap nite sleep or run away somewhere- tough nuggies. wierd as hell last year- glad it's over.
we are supposed to get blown away- i need to go put away soem yard junk and find my mom's storm windows. will write later or again-
i sure feelyour response - i think that's what made me write in first place - similarity and being there iwth you and your thoughts/ feelings. it [censored]- one day at a time and one nite more is about as much as i can muster. i don't know either- it's the most unfocused and unhappy i've ever been. BUT - better now than a year ago- so what the???
I cannot imagine how this plays out- thanks for your good wishes- i hope i don't fold & run either. i wonder too what i'm doing here and why i'm bothering. like ajm says- so we don't ever wonder if we didn't give it as much as we could i guess- so we are SURE we are doing the "rite" thing for us-
i'm going out to enjoy the leaves & color before storms blow them away- hopefully no leaks anywhere. i've got word & brain exhaustion (awoke at 4 a.ml and couldn't get back to sleep- edgie over these stupid and exotic weather reports- geeeeez xxo
