Hey Nero, just wanted to say I just came across a post you had written me at the end of August, I had talked about being with my H for 35+ years and was terrified of what was happening to us. You mentioned you had been with H for 34+ years. You had read some of my posts and were looking to read up on my sitch.
Just wanted to say how much I appreciate your words, I wish I had seen them earlier and as able to respond to you. I have managed to move forward in my sitch and am working on R with H. He has not made a commitment to M and we have not even talked about our problems or the things he has said or done to me. I slept in the spare bedroom for just on 5 months. One day I told him I didn't want to sleep there any more. I fully expected him to reject me...or move out of the MB, I jumped into bed and there I stayed.
I am taking things day by day, watching him progress through his MLC and often wondering why I am still here. Don't get me wrong I know I am better off than most (as far as I know no PA, however I now believe there may have been an EA, short-lived). I just feel like i'm in limboland without a commitment to work on the M. I guess none of us know what the future holds, its not promised to anyone.
I keep working on myself and creating a life for me that I am proud of. I am keeping my positive changes going and my PMA. He will do what he will do. At times he acts like a total jerk, but I am not buying into any of it. I'm not letting his alien spew affect me any more. Funny, now I notice his body language telling me HE feels embarassed about his lack of control. So he should be ashamed of himself. But main thing is I am happy with me.
I have read up a little on your sitch, I hope you continue to find the strength to fight your fight. You had been together a long time, I feel your hurt. You are an Aussie? Is your H one as well? That is one added hurdle there. LOL.
Wishing you well Nero. Hearing about the storm over here. Keep safe.
