4 days since my last post and things are still going steady and smooth over here. Even my concerns over iPad activity now seem unfounded. She doesn't seem to be hiding anything, has been very open with me, even tells me stories and shows me pictures she's received from friends. No getting upset with me either, but I have witnessed her express contempt for others a few times! Seriously, the worst I got recently was "I thought it was unusual you opened one bill and not all the others." "Why not just open them all?" It seemed like she was ready to really get into it over this, but I gave my reasons in a non defensive manner and we moved on.

I'm feeling more and more comfortable just doing my own thing and being my(new)self, and at the same time she's definitely more happy than a couple of weeks ago. A connection? I'm thinking so. She still seems "troubled" at times, and still prefers space to herself, but I understand that. Immediately after BD it seemed like our floors were covered with wall to wall eggshells. Now I can see there is actually carpeting and tiles under there!

I'll be driving her to the airport tomorrow morning for a fancy 5 night spa resort getaway. (on huge discount through her work) Still wanting space and time on her own, this fulfills her plan to "Be away from here for my 50th birthday". She tried to take my sister K along with her, but it turned out she couldn't get off work this week. Sis has been looking at new houses with her hubby. Since she moved herself out of his present house 6 months ago, this is good news!

My plans for the weekend include going to the drag races with my brother and BIL, or going to the local fright night with a co-worker. I also hope to find a new TV and have it in place before my wife gets home Thursday.

Next week I start an 8 week fitness boot camp with some of my coworkers. I already exercise plenty and certainly don't need to lose any weight, so this only means I'll have to eat even more than I already do!

Maybe I'm blinded by love or something worse, but I just can't see this rope that Cadet says I'm afraid to drop. Again I ask: Is there really only one way to DB? I can't help but feel like I'm on course. Someone smack me with a 2x4 if I'm wrong.

M: A really long time.
Crisis: 5 years.
She's still worth it.

Life is never made unbearable by circumstances, but only by lack of meaning and purpose. -Viktor Frankl