Searching, trying - still going, but how?

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Busting - Thanks for stopping by my friend, for pumping me up and be so inspirational. I like how you say this:

"Lets not other people's poor choices accept how we move forward or influence how we walk tall from this moment forward."

I am trying to stand tall, yet bracing for what I believe will be the toughest part of my journey - the lowest point where I will require more strength than ever. That is the divorce process, with its corresponding and inevitable financial debacle and the impending entrance of OW into my kids and my daily life. I know it will be the lowest low of this roller coaster for me and I am really trying to prepare for it so I can survive it and come out a better person. After that, everything will be forward-moving and I know it will get easier to stand taller.


NLW - Thanks for the advice, candor and and for sharing such personal feelings. It means a lot to me. I do like your suggestion, but I feel strongly my H would ignore it. He has done so with every request I have made, so there is no reason I should expect anything different. Plus I don't want to put him in control of this situation.

I know my limitations and while I would not react violently towards OW, I don't want to have my kids see that I don't even acknowledge her presence. Basic manners would be reasonable to extend to anyone. I consider that taking the high road, which is my goal. So I guess that until I know I can reach that point, I'd rather just avoid her, even if that means not attending my kids' activities all the time.

IDK, maybe not the best option, but I don't see many others.

Thanks again, lovely ladies!