Hi Wendylon - thanks for your comments I was just being polite I guess and giving him permission to postpone. I genuinely had been looking forward to catching up.
I wrote "that's a shame, I was looking forward to catching up" and then thought that sounded guilt-making and I didn't want him to feel bad/shame - that's how I have made him feel in the past unwittingly so I added the "we can raincheck" bit as we could. I wasn't trying to use a hook for once.
Maybe the James Bond movie text was but, I would have gone with someone eventually so asked him if he wanted to. In recent years he would not have agreed so readily and I am usually the one who books tickets so his response was unexpected.
From his track record, is he likely to stick with the plans for your evening out? Or could he retract even with a booking? I was about to write No, he has never canx a booking but I remembered he didnt show up for wedding anniversary w/e that was booked and paid for and non refundable £500. So will have to see.
Ambivalent? Not sure if that's the right word but it might be. I am LOVING my life and know I am fine. My emotions are no longer affected by H's actions in the way I was. I am NOT desperate for him to share my life. My life is good regardless.
Thanks for the comment on my butterfly story. I just think it's amazing how caterpillars completely dissolve to become a butterfly. I feel I have been breaking down Old Tumbling over the past two years (beliefs, thoughts, behaviours) to emerge a stronger,better person.
According to Dr Lincoln Brower: Inside the Chrysalis:
"the word "metamorphosis" means: "changing" its "form." What is happening is a biological miracle going on inside that caterpillar. Enzymes are being released that digest all the caterpillar tissue, so that the caterpillar is being converted into a rich culture medium. And so inside that chrysalis, during the first 3-4 days is literally a bag of rich fluid media that cells are growing on. And so the transformation of metamorphosis goes. It's a phenomenon of insects and it truly is a miraculous biological process of transformation.
Literally the entire internal contents of the caterpillar — the muscles, the entire digestive system, even the heart, even the nervous system — is totally rebuilt. It's like you took your car, you took a Ford into the shop and left it there for a week and it came out as a Cadillac.
During the development of the adult, the chrysalsid loses nearly half of its weight. This shows that the process of metamorphosis consumes a tremendous amount of energy."
