Oh, she's definitely attention seeking. She's admitted it before. Fortunately she's not blaming me for her whatever in the world us going on with her body. Death is a touchy subject for me. No honest clue as to why but it is. I could attend a total strangers funeral and end up sobbing. So for her to be this way scared me. My walls crumbled a little last night. She saw I was angry. So I confess that it was anger based out of fear that she would end up hurting herself physically as she's imo overdoing things. I told her I had accepted losing her as W, but not in this way. To make a long story short, she made me hug her. Weird night huh? Let's add some more to it. Earlier in the day I asked if we could talk money later on. She said ok. So later on last night I did bring it up. However she said, "can we not talk about it til after the w/e. I'm seeking closure on catastroohic events.". I said "I just wanted to let you know I am going to xfer money to pay the house taxes. I don't think I even want to know what you mean" (in re: to the closure statement). I'm pretty sure, 99%, that she was thinking I meant separate accounts, but nope. So...everyone pray she's mirroring her OW friend and breaking it off with OM / choosing me. ?? Or maybe she has an IC appt. Maybe meeting with an L (doubtful). I dunno.
