i am on that page too- but frequently second-guess myself. years of trying hard to see both sides - and not just sit back and assume i'm mrs right alllll the time (like him, like my mom, like everyone almost i know it seems- very smug and very self-involved and self righteous and "deserving") ??? what the???.
i often wonder how these people (just average people - i don't even think sometimes as , well, "lucid" as me) get to be soooo sure they are the bottom line authority on everything in the world.
we're all humans - we're all the same at the end of the day. take away our air for 5 minutes and we're all dead. how the heck they get to be all "entitled" i do not understand. (sometimes i'm jealous that i can't feel that- absolute righteousness and certainty that i'm right and should "have it all") (stinking h by the way- he thinks he can hve itall) couldja die???.....
i'm pretty much "grateful" in life - when somethings come my way. my life has been good and "lucky" despite the bad bad times. i forget i've had them on a daily bsis , they go and i don't see them as the defining things in my life. everyone i know wears their "bad times" like this giant golden badge of honor and hammer away adn away about how bad they had it- AND WHO THEY BLAME. (I Love this part). that they feel they get to just dump it on someone else???
it doesn't matter does it? it just doesn't matter how we all got here- we're here- suck it up0- try something to fix it now-
THIS TREE OUTSIDE MY WINDOW - A CRAPE MYRTLE OF ALL THINGS_ IS SOOOOOOO GOLDEN AND WONDERFUL- I CAN'T TAKE MY EYES OFF THE WINDOW.
I'M GOING OUT TO PICK LEAVES AND IRON THEM IN WAX TO PRESERVE. THEY'RE TOO BEAUTIFUL TO IGNOR- SUCKNG ME OUT THE DOOR TODAY TO THAT WONDERFUL GOLDEN WORLD OUT THERE NAD THE HELL WITH THIS ALL- THEM ALL - EVERYTHING.....
TA DA- ME BUSTING LOOSE - WHO KNWOS, MAYBE I'LL ROLL IN THE DARN THINGS!! like when we were kids- i do feel myself having the urge to lay in them - they're so colorful and wondrful -
i'm soooooooo EASY TO PLEASE - I'D SAY one of my BEST qualities in life- give me some pretty buttons or leaves -
