I am in total agreement and could scream my head off on a daily basis. matter of fact, sometimes i walk by the phone (i don't know why- lifeline with H when he's away) and curse at him- it- and say go to hell.

i get so mad- frustrated- disgusted over the same thing. i don't even care what the heck his junk is- why ow??? good question. my thought is that it's fun and an escape and osmeone else new (exciting?) (merely from newness btw) telling them they're all wonderful is soooo good for stupid (man) ego. i guess they need that kind of a "build up" and lets get real- we all know each other soooo well- maybve my h can't get that kind of thrill & chill from me and my appreciation.

just what i think- it's stupid and shallow and easy and soooo destructive i don't think he has one clue that it will probably push me over some line - some time and he will ruin it all. does he care? who the hell knows- if i had to guss, i'd say he thinks i'll "be there" forever. also if i had to guess- i'll get sick of it one day and he'll be out the window forever - scratching his head and saying "i never thought she'd go".

i'm sorry you're here- i feeel THE SAME WAY - DAILY. IT'S beyond comprehension- and beyond our control.

i'm better after a year- if i saw her in my driveway i'd be sorely temped torun her over. i am not a violent woman- i think in very violent terms about them both alot.

sayring totally rotten awful things helps me de-fuse. sorry - i guess in this im totally petty. people ruining my life and happiness (temporarily hopefully) brings that out in me.

don't let it disable you- i'm not happy- i'm not same girl i ws- but i'mnot dead and i can still list the positive things- tht's about all i can do- that and help someone else if they need it- somehow brings some purpose and satisfaction in the face of this crushing & dismal rejection.

carry on- rant alot- good luck- xxoo and here's a hug (( )) - lots of people out here in your shoes (sadly, EXACTLY, THOSE SHOES) and we'll try and be supportive. we understand- scream & yell& rant and get it out......