Last night I said something I kind of regret.

We had pictures scheduled with a photographer for S turning 18 months. We've done quick sessions every six months to get some amazing pictures of S and us.

Very early in the session the photographer asked us to each hold one of our son's hands and kiss over him. We did it once and then I whispered to W, "but I don't want to kiss you." Her face immediately dropped into a sad frown as she looked to the ground.

I have no idea why I said it. I think maybe it was because I was thinking of both our awkwardness and how she probably didn't want to kiss me. Later I whispered to her, "that came out wrong. That's not what I meant." We never said another word about it.

Yesterday I also saw that she put a lock code on her cell phone. She's never had a lock on it before. I wasn't snooping, I noticed it while she was playing with her phone. This is odd...


M34 W35
S5 S2
T10 M6
on/off over the years including her A
Recently-
Nov 2015 bomb
Nov 2015-Feb 2016 Reconciling
Feb bomb
March-April Reconciling
May - bomb
Mid-May I tell her I'm done