This plane has landed, baby!

[albamarie]

Angel- thank you so much for your words. I asked this on my thread with
no reply, sadly maybe those reading are just as unsure as I am.

They are the nastiest people when they leave, I think they do it so that the LBS will hate them so much and it makes it easier for them to leave. They will provoke the LBS to the point that the LBS can't stand it anymore.

I think I have to reserve in my mind the idea that he may be fooling me so I don't get fooled. But, you made me think and I remember this phase about May-Aug when he was so nasty, screaming mad, threatening, to the point that I couldn't stand it/him anymore.

I told him he's free - yea, that did nothing! Now, he is mr. confused saying he isn't trying to leave me, can't shake ea though. Is it the script, you got the same spiel?

Months ago I got the ea/ow in exchange for family speech, today he says he knows that's crazy talk.

be the lighthouse. Be the woman he'd be a fool to leave. Make it so that the house is a haven.

These are the words I live by. I have always maintained our loving home, and validated him when he was able to share himself with me . I admite to R talk - ow rants of my own - I now don't see the point nor do I want to put myself through that anymore. I want to not care, in hopes that one day she disappears.

Reading your post have been a welcome twist on MLC a new phase if you will, for me to learn about. Your in the front paving a little way for those of us who are just beginning to see our h's peek out.

"Warm" hug and ILY would be great! Funny how we fight so much for these men we love, who hurt us so much, yet a warm hug is what we crave.

Yes, I read about Retrouvaille, but it is way to early for him. He is experiencing a very serious spiritual battle, he is so intense, he is like a rebellious son right now who's very angry at his Father. There is one coming to Il in Nov. maybe one day.

I have been told to be that carefree spirit I've always been and take care of myself. It's a struggle everyday just to remember I can't save him, I've always got that bubble ready for him just in case, lol!

Your response means a lot to me and I pray your path brings you to a place were you are happy.