Thanks chatterbug. You're spot on, child comes first no matter what. It is my duty, and more so my wish, to show my S unconditional love. He should always come first. He has done nothing but deserve my love. It made my eyes tear up just looking at his picture last night.
I've had several meetings with my bosses and pushed hard to get better conditions as far as family time go. For now the only choice I've got is unpaid time off, but I make good money anyway so that's ok. They've actually been really good at arranging so that I get time of when I need/want and seem to be genuinly interested in trying to make it work. A wise friend told me "Remember, very few people at the end of their life will tell you how glad they are they spent all their time at work"
To be honest I really don't know if I even want to do stuff with X right now, maybe it's just my head going into fight/save mode. I'm in a really weird place right now and probably just need a reality check.
Together for 8,5 years. S2 Interest in OM. She left 29.09.12 b/c we couldn't work things out. No signs of OM, not digging. Living in seperate homes, sharing custody.
