I am doing a little better. I have stepped back from a relationship with H and my mutual friends. They were stressing me out, giving me updates on my H. Don't really want to hear anything about him right now. He's out of the country for two more weeks. It helps actually that he isn't in town. I don't feel as anxious and my D at home isn't upset because she hasn't seen her Dad.

He emailed her on Sunday wanting to know how her performance went and how is she doing. He also said he missed her. I believe he does miss her, but I think he wants to hear she misses him. I think him asking how everything went was more for him, than for her.

He wants to know that he is still important to her. She is pretty POed at him. Last I knew she never emailed him back.

I am doing very well, for me, about not communicating with him. Nothing since Sunday. I really do believe I can keep it up. I feel like I am making progress. I really do love him and want our marriage. I'm starting to accept the fact that I can't make him do anything. Wish I could! wink No. I want him to come home because its what he wants.