Thank you AnotherStander, I do realize that I did some anger talk. Thanks for pointing it out. I was resentful. I'm slowly accepting that his mind is really not on me or anything with me now...I still have dreams about him almost every night, I feel so sad. It's just that he is not contacting me at all, nothing is going on. It's complicated because I'm staying at his parents' house right now, so I'm reminded of him every single day. And I don't know what his parents are telling him, I know they're in contact a little. I just don't know why he isn't telling me anything. And the last time I saw him, he even said he basically decided to come back!!! And I know it's a lie now but why did he say that. Maybe he was worried that I'd cry or something to make him feel bad, that he wanted me to leave, so he lied. But, I just don't know why he is hiding so much now. Or maybe he doesn't think he is hiding. Maybe he's just waiting for me to move out of the house, then tell me the news....
I calmed down more now, it's silly of me to consider visiting him.... It really wouldn't do me any good.... I thought I was still in control of a say to him but... yeah, I don't think he cares anymore...
