Hi anotherstander - that's a good point. I guess I'd be better of comparing myself to the "me" I was and would like to be. It's just such a shame to have the sort of anxiety I have over this. It makes it so dificult to work even the most basic, common-sense plan of action. No, not "not hard". I've been at this long enough that I think it's nearly impossible. There are so many better ways for me to have responded to things and even though I wanted to do that, I couldn't. It's just sad.
