Going home

[labug]

Allow

By Danna Faulds

There is no controlling life.

Try corralling a lightning bolt, containing a tornado.

Dam a stream and it will create a new channel.

Resist, and the tide will sweep you off your feet.

Allow, and [b]grace[b/] will carry you to higher ground.

The only safety lies in letting it all in -

the wild and the weak -

fear, fantasies, failures, and success.

When loss rips off the doors of the heart

or sadness veils your vision with despair,

practice becomes simply bearing the truth.

In the choice to let go of your known way of being,

the whole world is revealed to your new eyes.

[labug]

^^^grace should be in bold-but I'm allowing my imperfections.

[needgrace]

dear sweet bug... that poem blew me away.. it is so beautiful that i cried. thank you for sharing that with me today. i am going to print it out and carry it with me. it is everything i needed to hear today (and every day.)

thank you dear bug. you have such a gift for speaking to the soul of others. ((((((((((((((((( )))))))))))))))))))

[scaredsilly]

Very nice, bug. And Grace is in there! Like it was written for her!

[bustingout]

Beautiful labug...

NG how are you doing? You will be ok, that i am sure of. Remember, this is her issue now, not yours.

I believe in you NG. And i love you dearly (((( ))))

[bustingout]

Hi NG, how are you doing? ((((( )))))

[needgrace]

hi sweet busting,

thanks for checking in. i am struggling the past few days and have been a bit embarrassed to post.

i went away for the weekend and had fun but honestly trips are a glaring reminder of missing my W... we always had so much fun on trips together. so i have been sadder since returning. does anyone else feel that?

i am fighting a cold too so my strength is low..

i have been trying to focus on the beautiful things i have in my life instead of the lack. i have been trying to lean into my sadness and not resist. i have been trying to do all the things that i think are healthy for me to get through this... but the truth is that sometimes this path is still hard for me.

thankfully i know that i will get through this and if this mood persists it means a growth step is coming.

[StubbornDyke]

(((((NG))))) Take god care, NG. As they say, "Another effin' opportunity for growth!"

[bustingout]

NG don't ever feel embarrassed to post here. This is our safe place. where we find people that know us, love us, will NEVER judge us.

and yes i feel that. I have struggled in the past two years on on any holiday, with or without H being there (because in the past two years, he has not 'been' there), thinking...gosh, i wish H was with us now. or afterwards thinking, yeah i had fun..but...I know what you are feeling.

You have so much beauty in you life. First and foremost.. YOU are a beautiful person. So beauty is with you always.

The path is hard. and thats why we are here. to understand it. make it easier to understand. And that we are not so dissimilar than we thought.

You are never alone. Never ever NG. You are my sister. My long lost sister. I love you dear sweet NG. I want to hear from you . even if its just a vent. don't disappear.

((((((( )))))))

[needgrace]

Thank you busting and SD

i came home today to the D papers. they were in the mail. they have been filed with the court. this is actually happening. why am i in such shock? i am so very sad tonight. you would think i would be ready by now for this, but i obviously am not. i am in shock and so incredibly sad.