so- short version. is it just okay to "not go there" as far as talking about r, talking about his feelings or mine-

i'm assuming that's the db spiel - rite? leave it lay, act like it's not there- get on with my (acting like) usual life, etc.

i get off on too many tangents in these posts i know- when i'm alone- things take on a different slant than when he's here. i can see i'm "worse" -

sadly- i still apparently see him as a vital part of my life/happiness - oh cripes....... oh yeah- repeat after me..