How to respond to this

[rubysgem]

I've done a lot of reading. I wanted to understand how he went from loving me to loving her. We are so different. And then it was like how he rewrote our entire relationship it made no sense. Things have to make sense to me haha...

After the last false attempt in June, he moved in with her and cut me off. Kinda, he still expected good night every night until I finally said I would NOT say good night to MY husband while he slept in another woman's bed anymore. It did not make him leave her though. He just accepted no more good night.

I am not really sure what made him leave her really. I mean, he moved out and they no longer "date" but the contact is still there. This was his choice -the leaving - and came because of the messages I left. But I am still pretty sure he's going back to her. I am just waiting for it. It's his pattern. And THIS time there is no coming back from it. THIS time I will be done and he will have his NO CONTACT only it will be me who won't be in contact with him anymore.

The time when we didn't speak gave me a lot of time to think and mull over the things I'd read and I came to the conclusion no amount of effort on MY part was going to save my marriage as long as HE did not want to put in any effort or if he continued on with her. And I realized the defeat of that and I let go.

I will not get back on the roller coaster and I truly feel very bad for those still on it. I am on the tilt a whirl now lol.. and hopefully my next stop is the ferris wheel... much milder rides...