Have to admit the latest news has my concentration shot. I am not going as negative with thoughts as I expected I would, but it is hard to read or concentrate on anything. This is going to be a long week or two until I get whatever news is coming my way.
We have our MC session today. I normally look forward to them but even feel distracted by this in a way. I want to go and I always hope for progress but everything seems somewhat overshadowed right now. I expect this is normal.
I never placed much stock in meditation, self hypnosis or the like, but wondering if one of these things would help with the concentration. Ultimately, knowing me the only thing that will get my concentration back is getting whatever news I need to get and then focusing on a solution or path forward and working hard on not letting it affect my 180s. If anything, this may have to get absorbed into my 180s. It has already impacted my GAL activities as I am slowly building a network of people I can work through this with.
I would rather have the comfort and support of my W rather than new found friends and support, but I need help and support so I will take what I can get. I sound disrespectful for saying it that way, but I am not. Just strange that I get support and hand holding from people I least expect and none from the one I need it from the most.
Strange times indeed.
M:44 W:41 M: 12 yrs W's EA began 3/12 Somewhere between WAW and MLC Still in same house
