Not gonna lie it [censored] but after some time you get used to the separation. In fact you may come to enjoy it. This is the time to work on you and do the things that you enjoy. If you do separate I've no doubt that you will survive. How was your life before you met and married your W? I'll bet you had a great time with friends so use this time to do those things again. She is not your life SG. Yes you love her but you do have a life without her it's inside you somewhere. Do not think that your identity and self worth is wrapped up in her because it's not!
This comment plays right into my fears. My entire life prior to meeting my wife I battled with depression. I never dealt with it with a professional or through meds. It was dealt with internally through the course of dating W. I no longer self destruct when I'm down. But I also broke all ties to a group of friends that were very negative and seemed to self destruct together. I now have a very, very small social network.
This is one of my 180s. I'm working to become less socially awkward and less shy so I can expand this network. Oddly enough, through the issues in my relationship with W, I think I've become a stronger and better person. It just takes time, and sometimes the fear of the past "me" from years ago takes over. I won't be that person again.
M34 W35 S5 S2 T10 M6 on/off over the years including her A Recently- Nov 2015 bomb Nov 2015-Feb 2016 Reconciling Feb bomb March-April Reconciling May - bomb Mid-May I tell her I'm done
