Realistic Optimist Hard At Work

[Just A Guy]

Well her birthday went well... The little gifts I got her she loved. Gave me a huge hug.

During dinner we talked about issues in the world an other social topics. It was deep. deeper than we have talked in a long time. I know one of the things she wants more of is my inner thoughts and feelings. So I will oblige, I just feel like it might be to late to prevent separation.

I feel like she is just sailing as smoothly through this until Feb when our lease is up. I know this gives me time and I know i have a lot to be thankful for in our sitch but I keep seeing her slooooooowly phase things out from married to room mate.

Like;
Getting changed in front of me
Taking down her pictures of us in her car
changing her photos on her phone and FB to non "US" stuff
Always sitting as far as she can from me on the couch
never holding my hand in public

The list keeps getting longer and longer....

Meanwhile I keep thinking about GALing and 180's that I can do. I feel like none of the things I have been doing such as not initiating contact, going out to friends once a week, being spontaneous, taking on a new project...

The MC told me I need to tell W when "I feel" something unpleasant she is doing. This was because we figured out that our lack of communication on negative things in our M have really blocked our growth as a couple and as individuals. The thing is I dont feel many negative things happening with the exception of lack of affection etc...

I feel I should not use those issues to bring up an "I feel" discussion or potential argument. At the same time I know I have to do some thing as it is one of the ONL things W has said that really bugs her...

"PULLING MY HAIR OUT"