i think he actually thinks he is a young man again- doing whatever he feels like doing- having it all.

Yes, he does, exactly. that's the Mid-Life-Crisis they can't handle being middle age and facing the later part of life. So they fool themselves, flip!

today my h said his muscles are weaker, what can he do - then he said I'll just pretend to be young in my head. Stupid answer but he will convince himself - lie to himself - whatever it takes.

Stay focused your not in a MLC- your the rational one. Stop analyzing him -he's crazy, lost, gone, and not your H. Sorry, but I'm telling myself this as well. NONE of this is about you/me or against us as well. He/they are not happy.

He calls you, hes says don't leave his life, take it for what it's worth and read nothing else into it. He is not happy - he is lost, mixed up - and you are his casualty because you love him.

sorry but here we all stand going through this - some of us will heal others will move on- regardless you have to come out of this smarter, stronger and happy to face your next r with h, or new things ahead.

your are stubborn girly please stop beating yourself up - there's lots of care and attention here - just keep reading and writing - you/I will get through this!!!!!

oooxxx DM


The past can't be ahead of you in the future.
You don't have to figure it all out, just pick a direction.
What's next...I don't know but I can't wait!